Michael's Christmas Progam

Last week was Michael's Christmas Program in Terrific Tots. It was so cute to see all the little kids singing together. Then, I got to help Michael make a gingerbread house out of graham crackers. It got pretty messy for me! Michael had a blast and was the last one to leave because he felt the need to fill his house full of candy!

It doesn't get better...

We got a call yesterday that Wayne's Grandma died on Saturday night.... I really cannot do this anymore!! PEOPLE (AND ANIMALS) PLEASE, PLEASE, PRETTY PLEASE STOP DYING!!! This brings the count to 5 loved ones in three months. NO MORE!!

My poor little puppy!!!

I cannot handle any more death!!!!!!!!!

Losing 4 loved ones in three months is way too much!!! First it started with my Grandpa in September, then a good friend, Anona, right before Thanksgiving, then my Grandma Gray just after Thanksgiving and now my dog. I know she wasn't a person, but she was a living thing and a part of my family.

She was hit a speeding car (who didn't even stop!!) in the road a few hours ago. I saw it happen and can't get it out of my head! Her neck was broken and it didn't take long for her to die after she was hit. I am pretty sure that she didn't know what hit her and wasn't in any pain... It was traumatic for me to see it happen. The sight of her being hit, and tumbling and bending/twisting in ways that no body should move, the sound of the hit, the image of her lying there, twitching not making a sound, and the feel of her heartbeat so fast, then just stop! ... just everything!! Now, I am afraid to go to sleep because I am afraid that I will dream about what I saw and I just want it to go away! It's like a broken tape going on and on and on and it's getting to be too much. I am trying to remember all the great moments of her life, but it's too hard, at least tonight. I am sure that it will get easier and better. It's just hard to believe that she is gone...

You never know what you have until you lose it! I miss her so much! I never thought that I would miss her barking and yipping at everyone and everything outside, or the way she would follow me around everywhere, or even eating my blinds and drapes! I will miss her cuddling up against me at night. I will also miss the way Michael and Gigi fought like siblings! I just keep expecting her to come running in and jumping up to me, licking my face and cuddling with me. But it's not going to happen.

I just wish that I didn't see it happen...

Luckily Michael didn't see Gigi being hit! I know what it's doing to me and I can't even imagine what that would do to my little two year old! We explained to him that Gigi died and went to live with Heavenly Father. I don't know how much he understood, but he didn't ask for her the rest of the night. He would say "Gigi died" and then would comfort me and bring some water to drink (in his eyes, water is magic and helps you feel better- he is such a sweetheart!) Anyway, we will see what happens tomorrow and I might have to explain to him again.

I didn't realize how hard it would be to lose a dog! I really did love her and as much as I was frustrated with her at times, I would rather have that back than feel this way! It's really hard...

This was the last picture I took of her...

I always loved this picture of her. It was at Lake Powell last year after she had gone for a swim... Oh I miss her so much!

Goodbye Gigi!! We love you!

Potty Training!

I am happy to announce that my little Michael is potty trained!! Hip Hip Hooray!! We are still working on pooping in the potty though... For three days now he not worn a diaper (except for night time diapers) He has never asked for one, which I am thankful for! He is so excited about going potty, which means I am so excited!!!! Michael loves putting star stickers up on his potty chart, which is filling up fast!

It all started Thursday Morning, when I asked him if he wanted to wear big boy pants and use the potty. He said yes. I was shocked because I ask him this quite often and he usually says no. So, when he said yes, I was excited. To my surprise, he wore underwear all day. Of course we went through all of them, which happened to be maybe ten or so. He would start to pee in his pants then stop, tell me and then go to the bathroom and finish. The next day, he did better and by the afternoon, he would tell me he needed to go before he even started which is awesome!

Today, he didn't pee in his pants at all! He would even go potty then come tell me... Pooping, is another story, but we are working on it and because I now refuse to put diapers, or pull ups for that matter, he will just have to learn. I will also get the lovely opportunity to clean that out.... yuck!!! Anyway, despite that, I am way excited! I just hope that when we do leave the house he will be just as good! I will be prepared though!

Ya!!!!